Searching for Normalcy

"And finally, above all else, it is about leaving a mark that I existed: I was here. I was hungry. I was defeated. I was happy. I was sad. I was in love. I was afraid. I was hopeful. I had an idea and I had a good purpose and that’s why I made works of art…" – Felix Gonzalez-Torres

What I would Tell Her* July 16, 2010

1. Value yourself more. You are unlike anyone else. You are God’s unique creation and He loves you.

2. Your mom is usually right. And your dad is strict for a reason. Don’t get mad at them. Understand that they love you and want what’s best for you.

3. You will never learn to swim. That’s okay.

4. You will always love books, you will always love reading and writing and poetry. Enjoy that.

 

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5. Study, study and then study some more. You may not feel like it, but you will be grateful for it.

6. Even though it won’t feel like it, school will be over in a few years. And those jerky kids that make fun of you and bully you won’t be in your life forever.

7. Don’t worry about boys and whether or not they like you. You will learn that they are not worth the energy.

 

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8. Save your money. You don’t need another handbag or pair of shoes. Also, don’t apply for credit cards. EVER!

9. You will never stop being shy around strangers. That’s okay. It’s part of who you are.

10. Don’t let other people lead you down the wrong path. You know what’s right and you have strong morals. Stick to that.

 

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11. That drastically short, “Princess Diana” haircut you got in middle school? Yeah, DON’T do it. You’ll end up regretting it and trying to grow it out for at least the next two decades.

12. Go to college. Actually, go AWAY for college. And finish. It will seem scary and daunting, but you will be glad when you have a degree. It doesn’t matter in what, as long as you have one.

13. Don’t worry about fitting in or being popular. Just be yourself and be proud of that.

 

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14. When your mom tries to teach you to sew, let her. Also, learn to knit.

15. As much as you’ll want to, do not dye your hair until it starts going gray. You will be stuck in a never-ending cycle of roots and touch-ups and color changes.

16. Resist trends. They are fleeting for a reason.

 

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17. Do NOT marry that guy. He doesn’t love you and certainly doesn’t respect you. He will only cause you heartache and insecurity.

18. Learn to drive sooner.

19. That group of girls you’re trying so hard to fit in with? They are not your friends. They will talk about you behind your back and turn on you for being “too honest.” But don’t worry; you will eventually find a new group of friends. And they will be amazing, beautiful, talented and kind. They will love you and accept you exactly as you are, imperfections and all. Treasure this, because it only happens once in a lifetime.

 

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20. One day, in the future, you will meet a cute German/Mexican boy. He will be funny and smart and sweet and he will appreciate you and accept you as is. Let the friendship happen naturally. Don’t rush it. Learn to love each other, before you fall IN love with each other. It will be good and you will be happy.

 

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*If I knew then what I know now.

 

hello, Friday! April 2, 2010

Filed under: Flashback Friday,Life,Miscellany,Personal,Random Thoughts — Lulu @ 4:58 pm

It’s Friday. I have absolutely nothing new to share (it’s been very same shit, different day around here lately). So, inspired by a couple of recent posts from my girl crush, Stephanie Howell, I am sharing A) a list of 20 confessions, and B) an extremely embarrassing adolescent photograph.

 

1. I love watching documentaries on History and Discovery Channels. My favorites are historical, religious, or anything having to do with serial killers.

2. I am addicted to “Law & Order:SVU” and have watched the reruns of every episode so many times, I usually know exactly which episode it is before they even get to the opening credits.

3. I love Pad Thai. I could eat it every single day of my life.

4. The first LP (that’s a 12” vinyl record for those of you born after the 80s) I ever bought for myself was “Dare” by the Human League.

5. I am extremely sensitive and cry very easily. Especially when I’m angry or hurt.

6. I love to read, but I go through phases. Sometimes I can go through a few books in just a matter of days; other times, I get lazy and it take me forever to finish one.

7. I save all my patterned paper scraps, but I never remember to use them.

8. I love notebooks and writing utensils. If I had to guess, I would say that I currently have at least 500 pens/pencils in my possession. (It might be more.)

9. Sometimes I snort when I laugh too hard.

10. I daydream/fantasize/obsess about moving to Washington state someday.

11. I have never, not once, in my life thought of myself as pretty or attractive. I will only say of myself that I am “cute, with makeup.”

12. I know that I would have made a great mom, but I’m glad I didn’t have kids with any of my exes.

13. I am totally, butt-crazy, in love with my boyfriend. He is absolutely my favorite person on the planet.

14. I hate sorting and doing laundry, but I like folding it when it’s done.

15. I’m pretty sure that if I ever met Drew Barrymore, we would be best friends.

16. When my ex-fiancé dumped me, my first thought was “thank God I won’t have to put up with that pain-in-the-ass kid anymore” (his son from his first marriage). Seriously, that kid made Damien seem sweet.

17. I can not stand having long nails.

18. I have several scars from abdominal surgery, but I kind of like having them. (Weird, I know.)

19. I hate roses. Especially red ones.

20. Because of blogging, I was able to meet my awesome boyfriend and one of the best friends I’ve ever had.

 

Okay, on to the photograph…

 

I believe this was in 1980 or ‘81 (I was around 12 in this picture, and those are my paternal grandparents, both deceased). Not only was I sporting the big-ass Kid Cudi glasses, but check out the oh-so-stylish General Hospital t-shirt AND high-waisted jeans.

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I was actually pretty obsessed with GH at that time. It was when Rick Springfield was on “General Hospital” as Dr. Noah Drake, and this song was on the radio all the time (“Paging Dr. Noah Drake to ICU to treat a case of heartbreak”). Oh boy.

 

 

Ahh… good times, good times.

 

That’s it, y’all. Peace out!

 

Flashback Friday July 2, 2009

Filed under: Flashback Friday,Photography — Lulu @ 12:01 am

I know I haven’t done a Flashback Friday in a looooooong time. But when Fanless’ grandma sent him this picture she found of him as a baby, I figured it would be a really cute Flashback Friday. (Seriously, he was just too cute for words.)

Anyway, I’m SUPER excited that I finally learned how to make multi-photo canvases in Photoshop (yay!), so I turned this into a two-photo canvas using my own baby picture alongside Fanless’. It’s a Flashback Friday Twofer!

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(FYI: In case you can’t tell, I would be the fat, white baby on the left. Also, Fanless currently has the exact same haircut he is sporting in the photo above!)

 

flashback friday October 24, 2008

Filed under: Flashback Friday — Lulu @ 5:27 pm

I was scanning some old pictures this afternoon so that I could print them out later on for scrapping. I came across this picture of me holding my niece on the morning of her baptism. This was taken in 1979 outside of St. John’s Catholic Church in Hialeah, FL.
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Please to be noting my gigantor specs, flared jeans and pre-John Frieda Frizz-Ease hair. Oy… My niece, of course, was just as cute then as she is now (see wedding pic below).image

 

flashback friday February 8, 2008

Filed under: Flashback Friday — Lulu @ 7:14 pm

I was going to try and write out a really great post for today. But, alas, I am sicky-sick and have just enough brain cells functioning to get through my workday. So I will have to leave you with a truly embarrassing photo from my youth instead.

Please to enjoy:

That’s myself and my cousin, P, when we were about three and five, respectively. He now lives in Tennessee with his adorable southern belle wife, J, and her two great kids. I wanted to post this photo because A)he’s my favorite cousin, and B)this past Saturday was his birthday.

Happy 40th, Cuz!!! I love you!!!