Searching for Normalcy

"And finally, above all else, it is about leaving a mark that I existed: I was here. I was hungry. I was defeated. I was happy. I was sad. I was in love. I was afraid. I was hopeful. I had an idea and I had a good purpose and that’s why I made works of art…" – Felix Gonzalez-Torres

A long Time Ago (in reverse) May 18, 2011

Filed under: Personal,Random Thoughts — Lulu @ 1:07 am

Saw this on SJ’s blog and thought it was cute. Basically, a time line in reverse.

 

One hour ago… I was at the post office mailing out a rebate form for the boy.

Two hours ago… I was at the boy’s house watching “Little Fockers.”

Four hours ago… The boy and I were eating pizza and watching “Limitless.”

Eight hours ago… I was at Target getting multi-purpose solution for my contact lenses.

Twelve hours ago… I was sitting at my desk, working.

Twenty four hours ago… I was sitting in bed, watching “Chelsea Lately.”

Three days ago… I was in bed, with a really bad cold, watching truly awful horror movies on the Chiller channel.

One week ago… Was a typical boring day at home. Same shit, different day.

One month ago… I was super excited to get my first-ever order of Japanese washi tape in the mail. Love it!

Six months ago… The boy and I had just returned from Family Christmas in Washington, which included family, friends, donuts and snow!

One year ago… I was hanging out at Happy Hour with my BFF – who was visiting from California – and some friends from our old job, then I left to meet up with the boy and his friends at Brickell Irish Pub for a friend’s birthday dinner/party.

Five years ago… I was living with my ex-fiancé, thinking about plans for our wedding. Unbeknownst to me, he was planning our break-up. (Asshole.)

Ten years ago… I had moved into the internet marketing department at my former company, where I was learning all about internet copywriting, search engine dynamics, and how to deal with moody web designers.

Twenty years ago… I had just started working at the Reservations Call Center at my former company a couple months earlier and I was still learning the ropes.

Thirty years ago… I was finishing up 6th grade and getting ready to go into junior high. Worst time of my life ever.

 

4 Things May 15, 2011

Filed under: Personal,Random Thoughts — Lulu @ 2:57 pm

Stole this from Paige Evans’ blog, because I’m sick and super-lazy today.

 

4 current shows I watch:
1. Criminal Minds
2. Law & Order: Special Victims Unit
3. Castle
4. The Good Wife
(I watch a LOT of other shows, but these are my top 4.)

 

4 things I’m passionate about:
1. My boyfriend. =)  I just love him!
2. Photography. My camera is with me at all times. You just never know when a photo-worthy moment will occur.
3. Scrapbbooking. I am so happy I found this hobby and the people I’ve met because of it.
4. I can’t think of a 4th thing. Is that bad?

 

4 phrases I use a lot:
1. "I’m just sayin’"
2. "Seriously??"
3. "You’re being a poopoohead" (to the BF)
4. "I love you" (ditto)

 

4 things I love to eat:
1. Pad Thai
2. croquetas
3. pizza
4. veggies (I hate fruit, but looove veggies)

 

4 movies I could watch over and over and over:
1. 10 Things I Hate About You
2. Mean Girls
3. The Boondock Saints
4. Gossip

 

4 book I love:
1. Goodnight Nobody by Jennifer Weiner
2. The Help by Kathryn Stockett
3. Mudbound by Hillary Jordan
4. But Enough About Me: A Jersey Girl’s Unlikely Adventures Among the Absurdly Famous by Jancee Dunn

 

4 bands I never get sick of:
1. The Cure
2. The Violent Femmes
3. New Found Glory
4. Angels & Airwaves

 

4 places I’d love to visit:
1. Ireland
2. Canada
3. Australia
4. England

 

4 things I’m looking forward to:
1. Getting over this effing cold!
2. Going to see "Bridesmaids" some time in the next couple of weeks (I hear it’s hilarious)
3. Scrappy day with the girls (always fun!)
4. Actually finishing this month’s book club selection (Baudolino by Umberto Eco)

 

That’s it. Peace out, yo!

 

ABC’s April 9, 2011

Filed under: Miscellany,Random Thoughts — Lulu @ 2:33 am

Another meme. Just because.

A= Available – Nope

B= Best Friend – #1) the boy, and #2) my bff, Jules.

C= Cake or pie – Cake. Red Velvet, to be specific.

D= Drink of choice – Dr. Pepper or coffee

E= Essential item you use everyday – My laptop

F= Favorite color – Black, pink, lime green and white. (Yes, I know black and white aren’t colors. I don’t care.)

G= Gummy bears or worms – Red Vines

H= Hometown – Miami

I= Indulgences – Scrapping supplies, books, writing utensils, notebooks (Good Lord… I’m really a nerd, huh?)

J= January or February – Err… January?

K= Kids and Names – No kids. But if I did have some, I’d name them Emily and Michael.

L= Life is incomplete without? – Love, good food, friends, literature.

M= Marriage date – Not married. But our 3-year dating anniversary is coming up soon.

N= Number of siblings – 1 sister, older.

O= Oranges or apples –  Apple pie

P= Phobias or Fears – Oh man, so many. Let’s see… Heights, flying, clowns, snakes, lizards, frogs (pretty much anything reptilian or amphibious), roaches, and getting stabbed.

Q= Favorite Quote – "And finally, above all else, it is about leaving a mark that I existed: I was here. I was hungry. I was defeated. I was happy. I was sad. I was in love. I was afraid. I was hopeful. I had an idea and I had a good purpose and that’s why I made works of art…" – Felix Gonzalez-Torres

R= Reason to smile – My honey. Trips to Washington. Snow! The invention of the DVR. Dr. Pepper.

S= Season – Spring. In Washington. My hair doesn’t frizz there!

T= Tag 3 or 4 people – No

U= Unknown fact about me – Can’t really think of anything right now.

V= Vegetable you don’t like – Green beans.

W= Worst habit – Not sure if it’s considered a habit, but I have zero patience. Like none, at all.

X= X-rays – Last time was when I was hospitalized in 2007 for my gall bladder surgery.

Y= Your favorite food – Pad thai, hands down.

Z= Zodiac Sign – Cancer

That’s all. Happy weekend, y’all! Peace out!

 

Currently March 10, 2011

Filed under: Life,Miscellany,Random Thoughts — Lulu @ 10:15 pm

LISTENING: To “The Office” on the TV.

EATING: Nothing

DRINKING: Dr. Pepper

WEARING: Pink tank top, gray shorts

FEELING: Congested. My allergies are being a pain today.

WEATHER: I have no idea, but it was like a monsoon outside earlier in the day.

WANTING: To take a road trip. Just feeling the need to get away with my honey.

NEEDING: A haircut and a dye job. My roots and grays are out of control!

THINKING: Where has the week gone?? Too much to do, too little time.

ENJOYING: LOOKING FORWARD TO: Our movie date tomorrow night! We haven’t been to the movies in forever, but we’re going to see “Battle: Los Angeles” tomorrow night. Yay!

WONDERING: What the surprise is that my honey said he was getting me today. He said it was something I’ve been wanting, but that it is not technology-related. So that leaves out a Nook and a Fuji Instax camera. The only other thing that came to mind is a hedgehog, but I don’t think it’s that.

 

Stray Thoughts:

  • I’ve literally just started working on the scrapbook of my sister’s wedding and I’m already overwhelmed. Oy vey!
  • I forgot to call the Toyota service department to see if the replacement part for my engine has come in already. I really need to do that tomorrow.
  • Looking forward to seeing the scrappy girls on Saturday and the book club girls on Sunday.  Which reminds me that I want to start posting about the books we read in book club. In case anyone else is interested in them.
  • Speaking of books, I started my $3 copy of Abraham Lincoln: Vampire Hunter yesterday. Loving it already.
  • I finished another baby album. This one is for my friend, Joy, who’s also having a little girl. I’ll share pictures after I have a chance to edit them.
  • Just caught a glimpse of myself in the dresser mirror. I really, REEEALLY need a haircut.

That’s all for now. Peace out, yo!

 

Exactly March 9, 2011

Filed under: Life,Miscellany,Personal,Random Thoughts — Lulu @ 11:05 pm

Pic

 

:: source ::

 

Currently February 22, 2011

Filed under: Life,Miscellany,Random Thoughts — Lulu @ 4:12 pm

Haven’t done one of these in a while…

 

LISTENING: Cary Brothers’ “Belong”

EATING: Doritos

DRINKING: Cherry Coke Zero

WEARING: black tshirt, navy leggings, flip flops

FEELING: Much better! I’d been sick for a few days and had zero energy.

WEATHER: According to my weather widget, it’s 80 degrees and partly cloudy.

WANTING: A red velvet cupcake

NEEDING: A pedicure. Desperately!

THINKING: I really need to get this current work project wrapped up so I can move on to the rest of my neverending to-do list!

ENJOYING: Having my car (finally) paid off!!

WONDERING: Whether or not we’ll be able to make it to Daytona Supercross this year (doesn’t seem likely).

 

And just because it made me laugh:

via Pleated Jeans

 

Coincidence November 29, 2010

Filed under: Miscellany,Random Thoughts — Lulu @ 2:34 pm

Just a quickie post so I can remember this moment…

 

I’m sitting on my bed with the laptop in front of me, drinking my venti nonfat white mocha latte from Starbuck’s, and scrolling through my blog subscriptions on Google Reader. When I got to Christina Clouse’s blog, I had to grab my camera (which was in my purse right next to me) and snap a pic because this was just too funny to ignore:

 

coincidence

I happened to be resting my cup on the edge of the laptop, holding it at the exact same angle as the one in the picture on her blog.  I know, it’s kind of dumb, but I thought it was a cute coincidence.

 

100 truths: A Meme November 19, 2010

Filed under: Miscellany,Personal,Random Thoughts — Lulu @ 2:03 pm

I wanted to take a break from working, so I decided to do this meme (which I stole from one of my friends on Facebook). 

 

Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. Tagged means "I’m interested in knowing what are your 100 truths". (To do this, go to "notes" under tabs on your profile page, copy and paste this note, erase my answers and enter your own, tag people (in the right hand corner of the app then click publish.)

Yeah, I’m totally not doing that. If you want to do it for yourself, be my guest.

 

LASTS:

1. Last beverage: coffee with vanilla caramel creamer
2. Last phone call: my sister
3. Last text message: my boyfriend
4. Last song you listened to: The theme song from “Damages” (“When I Get Through With You” by The VLA). I’m currently watching season two on Netflix.
5. Last time you cried: Oh, gosh. I always get teary-eyed at sad movies, TV shows, things like that. But a really personal, emotional crying session? I can’t remember.

 

SIX HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice:
Twice, as in 2 dates? Or twice, as in dating, breaking up, and dating again? Either way, yes.
7. Been cheated on: Oh yes. Way too  many times.
8. Kissed someone?: Yes
9. Lost someone special?: Yes
10. Been depressed?: sometimes
11. Been drunk and threw up?: drunk, yes. threw up from it, no.

 

LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Black
13. Pink
14. Lime Green
15. White

 

IN 2010:
16. Made new friends:
yes
17. Fallen out of love: no, actually more in love than before
18. Laughed until you cried:  That happens a lot actually
19. Met someone who changed you: no
20. Found out who your true friends were: yes
21. Found out someone was talking about you: yes, but since it was someone that i know is a complete nutter, i don’t care.
22. Kissed anyone on your friend’s list: yes! my honey!
23. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Quite a few; they are mostly my family and IRL friends.

 

(Just noticed #24 is missing)

 

ABOUT YOU:
25. Do you have any pets?:
Not anymore. Have had dogs and fish
26. Do you want to change your name?: sometimes.
27. What did you do for your last birthday?: Went to a RATT/Scorpions concert in downtown Miami, then out for pizza with friends
28. What time did you wake up today: 7-ish
29. What were you doing at midnight last night: Watching “Chelsea Lately”
30. Name something you CANNOT wait for: hockey game next week, Everglades Airboat tour the week after, then our trip to WA!
31. Last time you saw your father: July 2008; that’s when my parents moved to Panama
32. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: I wish I we could move to WA right now!
33. What are you listening to right now: nothing.
34. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yes
35. What’s getting on your nerves right now?: right now this very moment? nothing
36. Most visited webpage: Probably Facebook, followed by Buzzfeed and The Superficial
37. What’s your name: n/a
38. Nicknames: Balou (my bff), Lulabelle (my cousin), Lulu (actually, Aunt Lulu – Mia calls me that), Lou (just about everyone else), The Lulu (my BF)
39. Relationship Status: In a relationship
40. Zodiac sign: Cancer
41. Male or female or transgendered: Female
42. Primary: ??  Is that like Elementary School? Oh God, so many… St. John’s Catholic School, Jose Marti Private School (I think; it was a looooong time ago), Hialeah Elementary, North Hialeah Elementary, three schools in Texas I can’t remember, then back to NHE
43. Middle School: Henry H. Filer Middle School
44. High school: Hialeah High
45. Hair color: Naturally: strawberry blonde. Currently: dark brown
46. Long/medium/short: Sort of medium/long-ish, I guess.
47. Height: 5’7”
48. Do you have a crush on someone?: Absolutely! My awesome BF!
49: What do you like about yourself?: My eyes, my lips… and just my general all-around awesomeness! (just kidding)
50. Piercings: Just my ears
51. Tattoos: Three: Chinese symbols for “strong” and “happiness” on my left ankle, zodiac symbol for Cancer on my left wrist
52. Righty or lefty: Righty

 

FIRSTS:
53. First surgery: I think I was 7 or 8 years old. I had to have six baby teeth removed surgically because they hadn’t fallen out and my permanent teeth were growing in super-crooked.
54. First piercing: my ears, when I was a newborn
55. First best friends: This is hard to remember. I think it was Mario, the kid that lived next door in our duplex when I was like 4?
56. First sport you joined: Swimming and gymnastics. Both my mother’s idea. I quit immediately.
57. First pet: a kitten my older sister got when I was about 5 or 6
58. First vacation: I don’t remember ever going on a family vacation with my parents. I don’t think we ever did that. I do remember going to DisneyWorld with my sister, her hubby and her in-laws when I was 11.
59. First concert: The Rolling Stones at the Orange Bowl in Miami. I think it was around 1988 or 1989.
60. First crush: Oh man… I think it was a kid named Osvaldo in like 1st or 2nd grade?

 

CURRENTLY:
61. Eating: nothing
62. Drinking: still coffee
63. Already missing: my honey
64. I’m about to: get back to work
65. Listening to: nothing
66. Thinking about : This question? lol
67. Waiting for: 3PM so I can log off

 

YOUR FUTURE :
68. Want kids?:
Not anymore
69. Want to get married?: Maybe, but it’s not a priority
70. Careers in mind: this one

 

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?
71. Lips or eyes:
My BF has beautiful brown eyes and nice full lips, so BOTH!
72. Hugs or kisses: Both!
73. Shorter or taller: Taller
74. Older or Younger: Doesn’t matter to me, but my BF is younger (5 years)
75. Romantic or spontaneous: both?
76. Nice stomach or nice arms: don’t care about either
77. Sensitive or loud: Neither. Just nice. And funny. I do like funny.
78. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship
79. Trouble maker or hesitant: I don’t understand, but neither sounds good to me.

 

(80 is missing, too. WTH?)

 

HAVE YOU EVER :
81. Drank hard liquor:
yes
82. Lost glasses/contacts: yes
83. Had sex: yes
84. Broken someone’s heart: yes :(
85. Had your own heart broken: so many times
86. Been arrested: no
87. Turned someone down: yes
88. Cried when someone died: yes
89. Liked a friend of the same sex?: not romantically.

 

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
90. Yourself:
Sometimes. Depends on the situation.
91. Miracles: Hmm… not sure. I want to say yes, but I have my doubts
92. Love at first sight: no
93. Heaven: See “miracles” above
94. Santa Clause: Yes! Because he is real!
95. Kiss on the first date?: Sure
96. Angels: See #91 and #93.

 

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now?:
yes! my honey!
98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time?: No
99. Wish you could change things in your past?: So many things. But then I wouldn’t be who I am and I wouldn’t be where I am and I probably wouldn’t have met my BF, who makes me ridiculously happy. So I guess my answer is no.
100. Are you posting this as 100 Truths?: yes

 

currents November 10, 2010

Filed under: Life,Miscellany,Personal,Random Thoughts — Lulu @ 1:57 pm

listening: Damages, Season 1 (Netflix online)

eating: nothing

drinking: Cherry Coke

wearing: black yoga pants, black boat neck t-shirt, purple ankle socks, black Hello Kitty skippers (don’t you judge me!)

feeling: congested. Allergies are in full effect!

weather: gorgeous (finally)!!! 70-something degrees, no stifling humidity and not a cloud in the sky

wanting: croquetas de jamon

needing: a nap!

thinking: about our trip which is in just 4 weeks! Holy Crap!

enjoying: how unusually quiet it is in the ‘hood today.

wondering: if I should get a couple of long-sleeve t-shirts at Target. My old ones are getting kind of ratty.

 

Currents October 22, 2010

Filed under: Life,Miscellany,Personal,Random Thoughts — Lulu @ 5:58 pm

listening: “Night at the Museum” on the TV behind me (and I just realized that Attila the Hun in this movie is the same guy that played Coach Tanaka on “Glee”!)
eating: nothing at the moment.
drinking: nothing.
wearing: black cargo shorts, black tank top, flip flops.
feeling: a little hungry.
weather: haven’t been outside today but it looks nice out..
wanting: dinner!
needing: to put away laundry.
thinking: about our trip to WA in December.
enjoying: nothing at the moment.
wondering: what I’ll make for dinner.

 

Just a thought…

 

Sometimes I am really amazed by the kindness of friends. I think, in general, we tend to waste too much thought and energy on people that hurt us or have been negative towards us. It’s human nature. But we never really focus energy on those that are kind to us. Sure, we may be grateful and we may say thank you, but we don’t linger on those thoughts. We tend to linger on the hurtful experiences, remembering what was said or done to us, and maybe thinking of ways we could have reacted better. But I think the world would be such a better place if we could flip the switch on that behavior. If we could push away the hurt and negative feelings quickly, and really focus our thoughts and energy on the positive people we have in our lives, on what they mean to us, and how much better they make things. So for the rest of today I am going to think about those people that have been kind to me, that have done nice things for me, that make me feel grateful for their presence in my life. Just writing that puts a smile on my face. =)

 

Happy weekend, all! Peace out!

 

 
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